Miss me? Nah, I didn’t think so. This blog had gotten pretty darn boring after all. You can only write about the same twenty pounds going up and down, up and down, up and down (repeat at least 3 more times) before people start to lose interest.
Hell I was losing interest. Not in losing the weight – never that! Just in writing about how STUCK I was.
Yes, you caught that didn’t you? The use of a past tense verb.
Before I get to that however, let me quickly catch you up on happenings since my last post a few months ago.
June 3, 2014… I was back below 200 again! The next week would bring another several pounds lost, until once more I would teeter on the verge of being at a NEW LOW WEIGHT (below 195.4) since I started the whole program in October of 2012. Now of course every other time I have gotten close, I have completely sabotaged myself and bounced back up. But surely that was not going to happen again?
Not only did I sabotage myself, I had a 3 week binge-a-thon of epic scale. I cannot believe how many calories I consumed on most days. I cannot believe that I never felt full, much less seriously ill (as I should have!). But in any case, the end result was not only moving away from my “new low weight” but in fact getting back up to 218.6 pounds by June 30.
Yes. I gained 22 pounds in about 3 weeks.
Then on July 1st the lord appeared to me in the form of a burning bush and commanded that I repent. Okay not really but the end result was kind of the same. My damn binge eating lightbulb switch (on/off on/off) was finally flipped back to off. As the smoke cleared, I looked around at the damage and decided I needed to go all in. Not tomorrow. Now. Right away. Whatever the mental/emotional block was that I kept hitting around 195, I needed to get over that bitch once and for all.
I went back to the mindset of “my ONLY job right now, ONLY priority, is losing weight. Everything and everyone else needs to come second for a while. period.“
I also resumed taking Phentermine – which I had been off for a long time – because I was going to throw every damn tool at my disposal at being successful this time.
So that was July 1 and now it’s August 14. I have taken off all the weight I had regained, and lost an additional 8 pounds. I was 188 this morning.
Most of the rest of my weight loss group has started transitioning back to food, I was supposed to start last week. I didn’t.
I have been so on target the last 6-7 weeks and it’s been so gloriously EASY again to be on only meal replacements. I feel great. And as I thought about it, I simply could not imagine anything more self-destructive and filled with sabotage than my reintroducing food right at the time that I am finally cruising in a new lower weight loss zone. Absurd!
So, I am staying on all meal replacements until…
Either I start cheating, and then I’ll need to focus on trying to eat moderately, or else I start feeling poorly (physically). Or I run out of meal replacements.
I don’t think it will be more than another 8-10 weeks, but I could lose another 15-20 pounds in that time. That’s a lot! I think I could do it this time!
Yes, I have said that before. 🙂
In any case, in an effort to raise my game and keep this entertaining for all of us, I am also going to do some video blogs in the comings weeks in which I’ll cover some of the reasons I have been successful.
Yes, I have been successful. The videos will not be about my struggles to lose more weight, they will be focused on the reasons/tools that have enabled me to keep off more than 100 pounds for over a year at this point. Far longer than I have ever kept major weight off in all my prior attempts.
So… short intro video coming for new “viewers” (you guys already know the basics) and then I’ll start some topic based videos.